During my depression, I burned through big blocks of time staring out the window. While not as much, I still stare out windows like the answer is not in here, but out there somewhere. Why do we do this? What clarity or miracle are we looking for anyways?
Could the same answers come by staring at a spot on the ceiling or looking at the dust accumulating on our furniture? The art of staring isn’t learned over night but with lots of extra time and experience.
I think we look outside because it isn’t the same crap we are dealing with inside. It is just something else to look at.
Have you ever had someone say, “The answer is inside you” OR “wherever you go, you go too”? These one-sentence snappy pieces of advice are absolutely right, they just aren’t helpful.
I am getting to the point where I have done enough thinking and it’s time to do more doing. Whenever I have done lots of this “doing”, I feel like I have earned my sleep and I don’t overthink things (which being both Canadian and a woman, I have the odds stacked against me there) ;)
Much of my staring time was wishful thinking. I was hoping things would change and would hope for brighter days. It isn’t really very productive. Mark often rolls with, “Just start it” and he seems to get lots done.
Releasing ‘Idiot Savant’ was done to get the deep thoughts out and to heal. Having a ‘project’ whether art, music, writing, crafts, furniture-building or household repair allows us to keep moving which is healthy. What we shouldn’t be doing is stirring the same pot of stew in our heads until the food dries out and is no longer good to consume. Sometimes, you just have to dive in. Placing a toe in the cold water can just make us say no to jumping in.
I feel really good when I am creating. I still don’t have the BIG answer I am looking for, but maybe the answer isn’t ready to speak to me. Perhaps, I can live without some answers. Maybe we don’t have to have it all figured out. Maybe the answer we want isn’t the one we are going to get anyways. Maybe answers change with the weather.
Could the same answers come by staring at a spot on the ceiling or looking at the dust accumulating on our furniture? The art of staring isn’t learned over night but with lots of extra time and experience.
I think we look outside because it isn’t the same crap we are dealing with inside. It is just something else to look at.
Have you ever had someone say, “The answer is inside you” OR “wherever you go, you go too”? These one-sentence snappy pieces of advice are absolutely right, they just aren’t helpful.
I am getting to the point where I have done enough thinking and it’s time to do more doing. Whenever I have done lots of this “doing”, I feel like I have earned my sleep and I don’t overthink things (which being both Canadian and a woman, I have the odds stacked against me there) ;)
Much of my staring time was wishful thinking. I was hoping things would change and would hope for brighter days. It isn’t really very productive. Mark often rolls with, “Just start it” and he seems to get lots done.
Releasing ‘Idiot Savant’ was done to get the deep thoughts out and to heal. Having a ‘project’ whether art, music, writing, crafts, furniture-building or household repair allows us to keep moving which is healthy. What we shouldn’t be doing is stirring the same pot of stew in our heads until the food dries out and is no longer good to consume. Sometimes, you just have to dive in. Placing a toe in the cold water can just make us say no to jumping in.
I feel really good when I am creating. I still don’t have the BIG answer I am looking for, but maybe the answer isn’t ready to speak to me. Perhaps, I can live without some answers. Maybe we don’t have to have it all figured out. Maybe the answer we want isn’t the one we are going to get anyways. Maybe answers change with the weather.
For Ian, the 9 year old Savant in the story, he spends very little time staring out the window but uses it to plot. With very little resources, he manages to progress forward. For Mark and our home, we attempt to live our life that way. Frank Gryner, my co-producer and amazing animator, also functions that way. We have all had some really heavy things happen in our lives. We could have all just stared out windows looking for answers to come to us. We have artistic plans and goals, but for the most part, we are all really much better moving and creating and allowing the universe to tell us things as we go.
Sometimes, what we perceive as our immediate needs aren’t what we need at all. Sometimes trusting in the power of movement can surprise us.
I am very happy to share the product of our creativity (and collective sadness) with you. I hope you watch this video and feel inspired to take whatever is bothering you and transform it into energy. You may not know how deep the water is or how strong your water-treading abilities are…but staring at the water hoping to get across is killing your spirit.
Sometimes, what we perceive as our immediate needs aren’t what we need at all. Sometimes trusting in the power of movement can surprise us.
I am very happy to share the product of our creativity (and collective sadness) with you. I hope you watch this video and feel inspired to take whatever is bothering you and transform it into energy. You may not know how deep the water is or how strong your water-treading abilities are…but staring at the water hoping to get across is killing your spirit.
We didn’t know what was going to happen with the BIG answers (and still don’t). We just started moving.
Much love on you,
Karen :)
“Each wicked heavy step will end today I swear…we’re not going to die here…” ~ BLACKGUARD, ‘Idiot Savant’
Much love on you,
Karen :)
“Each wicked heavy step will end today I swear…we’re not going to die here…” ~ BLACKGUARD, ‘Idiot Savant’